We went to the circus tonight. It was fun but very hot sitting in a stuffy big top tent. My favorite act was the aerial act with the girls up in the air. I liked their costumes. Gavin liked all the animals.
My husband surprised me with a phone call last night-just as we were getting into bed. *Sigh* I love that man. Its so wonderful to hear his voice.Gavin laughed when he heard him on speakerphone. It kills me to admit this, but Gavin doesnt say Daddy now. He says names of people that are around, but he isnt saying Dad or Dada or Daddy. I risk Matt reading this-and Im sorry I havent told you honey. I try to avoid that question. He loves his daddy and he laughs and kisses his pictures so its not like he has forgotten. The only thing I dislike about having a short phone conversation is that he cant tell me anything really. and since I know I cant ask him anything it ends up being this one-sided conversation and I hang up feeling guilty for doing all the talking. I want to hear what hes been doing, where he has been, where he is going, how he is feeling, etc. I told him, "there is so many questions I want to ask you!" and he said,"I know, I want to ask you things too." He said a photographer/journalist got a hold of him...so Im now on the look out for pictures or a blurb from him. He dodges cameras like the plague so this is very surprising and exciting. I loved hearing his sweet voice. After talking with him, I had a very interesting dream...they (the guys) got the chance to come home for a weekend so I go to meet him and its very crowded in this hangar type building on base and I keep asking where he is but I never find him. I had a similar "searching in a crowd" dream during our last deployment.
I didn't know you fried eggplant before you layer it in eggplant parmigiana...?!
HBO lineup tonight: True Blood, Curb your Enthusiasm, and Entourage. We also watched a marathon of Happily Divorced last night. I need to watch Boardwalk Empire from the beginning too. but that list is LONG. I need to watch Dexter from beginning too. I cant wait to be home to watch my shows on MY DVR. not to mention I so desperately need to escape to the comforts of Stars Hollow.
Im looking forward to going home and sleeping in my own comfy bed and BY MYSELF. I love sleeping next to my son but I dont like it at the same time. His little feet find their way into my back and he likes to poke my eyes in the morning. Not to mention he is so spoiled with the inlaws- he isnt listening to me and he wont eat real food! he likes mac and cheese but I dont want him to live on mac n cheese! or yogurt. or mandarin oranges. I miss the good ol days when I shoveled peas or other pureed vegetables into his mouth and I was able to ensure he was nourished with the good healthy stuff.
Speaking of healthy, tomorrow means a new week and Im getting back into the gym since I had a few days off for the weekend (and to rest my knee & heel) I love working out and I want to make sure I keep up the good routine when we get back home. This month feels really long. We have done so much fun stuff, but man, there is nothing better than home.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
much needed update
Gavin and I have been travelling all over and I just haven't made the time to blog. I think Im also avoiding thinking too much about this deployment "elephant in the room" and really expressing my feelings. but anyways here is a list of all the things we've been doing thus far. I hope to elaborate more on each one at a later date.
June 25-27- Andy & Kelley's house- played at park and in pool with the cousins. had amazing Italian dinner in backyard
June 27- Drive to Napa. Awesome drive- stopped a few times to keep our sanity but Gav is such a trooper.
Napa- went to parks, gym, dinner with family, tried a movie (unsuccessful, btw) hung out with brothers, baked bread with Allen, shopping, Chef's Market in downtown Napa, Scientopia, swimming at Ted's
July 2&3- Ft. Bragg- Jug Handle Creek Farm for Meme's 70th Birthday Party. Visited with cousins, aunts & uncles. hiked to the beach, sang songs, ate amazing food, bubbles, whoopie cushion, Colin slept in our room with 2 small beds, driving with dad in suburban
July 4- Nightmare at the airport- I was feeling really sick, sat on plane at the gate with screaming kid for 2 hours, flight cancelled, re-booked flight, back to Napa. needed a few days to recoup
July 6- Attempt #2 flying to New York. way better time- sat in 1st row, lots of room for toddler to be happy during 5 hour plane ride.
Long Island- lots of sun, beach, playing outside, reading books, seeing the Fennesseys, retail therapy, Bad Teacher, library, classes at the gym, movie night-Rango & Hall Pass,pedicures, Friendly's
July 9- Heather & John's Wedding
July 16&17- Go upstate to Joyce & Angelo's for a visit
July 20- Museum Day- Blue Star Families- Cradle of Aviation, Nassau Count Firefighters Museum, Long Island Children's Museum
July 21-Target & lunch with Liz & fam
July 22- Smith Haven Mall- Cheesecake Factory-Captain America 3D
July 23- lil Chris's Birthday Party (its really hot out!)
I haven't heard from Matt in 2 weeks. He emailed a few times and called once but now Im just waiting to hear from him again. Being in his hometown really makes me miss him. Everything we do reminds me of him. I haven't shed tears during this deployment but I have a feeling once Im home in my own environment, in my own comforts I will let it all out. There is that pit in my stomach (Matt says he has the same feeling)
Gavin is growing so much every day and I am feeling guilty that Matt is missing it. He needs a haircut and a part of me doesn't want to just because I want things to be the same when Matt gets home but I know that is impossible. I know I shouldn't feel guilty, Matt probably feels guilty- these are all normal feelings. Its just hard. We are having fun, but its just not the same without him. Gavin says: GO! and WHOA. along with the regular, Mom, Nan, PA, yes, shoe, juice, dog, moo, woof.
June 25-27- Andy & Kelley's house- played at park and in pool with the cousins. had amazing Italian dinner in backyard
June 27- Drive to Napa. Awesome drive- stopped a few times to keep our sanity but Gav is such a trooper.
Napa- went to parks, gym, dinner with family, tried a movie (unsuccessful, btw) hung out with brothers, baked bread with Allen, shopping, Chef's Market in downtown Napa, Scientopia, swimming at Ted's
July 2&3- Ft. Bragg- Jug Handle Creek Farm for Meme's 70th Birthday Party. Visited with cousins, aunts & uncles. hiked to the beach, sang songs, ate amazing food, bubbles, whoopie cushion, Colin slept in our room with 2 small beds, driving with dad in suburban
July 4- Nightmare at the airport- I was feeling really sick, sat on plane at the gate with screaming kid for 2 hours, flight cancelled, re-booked flight, back to Napa. needed a few days to recoup
July 6- Attempt #2 flying to New York. way better time- sat in 1st row, lots of room for toddler to be happy during 5 hour plane ride.
Long Island- lots of sun, beach, playing outside, reading books, seeing the Fennesseys, retail therapy, Bad Teacher, library, classes at the gym, movie night-Rango & Hall Pass,pedicures, Friendly's
July 9- Heather & John's Wedding
July 16&17- Go upstate to Joyce & Angelo's for a visit
July 20- Museum Day- Blue Star Families- Cradle of Aviation, Nassau Count Firefighters Museum, Long Island Children's Museum
July 21-Target & lunch with Liz & fam
July 22- Smith Haven Mall- Cheesecake Factory-Captain America 3D
July 23- lil Chris's Birthday Party (its really hot out!)
I haven't heard from Matt in 2 weeks. He emailed a few times and called once but now Im just waiting to hear from him again. Being in his hometown really makes me miss him. Everything we do reminds me of him. I haven't shed tears during this deployment but I have a feeling once Im home in my own environment, in my own comforts I will let it all out. There is that pit in my stomach (Matt says he has the same feeling)
Gavin is growing so much every day and I am feeling guilty that Matt is missing it. He needs a haircut and a part of me doesn't want to just because I want things to be the same when Matt gets home but I know that is impossible. I know I shouldn't feel guilty, Matt probably feels guilty- these are all normal feelings. Its just hard. We are having fun, but its just not the same without him. Gavin says: GO! and WHOA. along with the regular, Mom, Nan, PA, yes, shoe, juice, dog, moo, woof.
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