Fun Friday

I had my first day of volunteering at the Navy-Marine Corps Relief Society. Gavin also had his first day of real childcare at the CDC on base. Poor guy cried when I walked out the door, but the ladies said he did well. It was really nice that they provide his meals there- Ive been having a "block" on what to feed him these days so not having to prepare food for him was a nice little break (even if it was only 5 hours!) I learned a lot at the office. I even got to complete 4 quick-assist loans on my own. Its a very interesting position to have...The Marines/Sailors come in pretty upset or angry that they are there. The society is there to educate financial independence but also to provide relief through interest free loans. A much better alternative to a payday loan place. A lot of reasons for coming to the relief society are out of the Marine's control, its not that they budgeted poorly- sh*t happens! Its just a different spot for me to be in, Im used to giving medical care. Where I can be compassionate and actually FIX whats wrong. In this position I can still be compassionate but a little more limited and Im not necessarily fixing something. I dont know, i dont think im explaining my feelings well. The people leave thankful for the help but still stressed. Its like I wish I could offer more comfort or something. Its even a tad depressing to hear the different stories/situations people have. It goes to show, you never, ever know what is going on behind closed doors. I am very much looking forward to moving up and learning how to do case-work so perhaps I could do more to help but also work on budgets. I love doing my own budget and Im kind of obsessed with keeping it in check and organized so I like the idea of that part of it.

I am very happy to announce that the non-communication is over! My darling husband talked to Gavin and I this evening and it was so what I needed. He reassured me, he complimented me for doing such an amazing job. I was reminded that he is this wonderful man, working hard for us and has changed a lot in the past few months. The old Matt would have been grumpy and gotten upset easily at me and every little thing. But tonight proved to me that he has changed. He is the new and improved Matt. A man I can love and trust and have the cutest babies with. My heart is full and happy now. A part of me is embarassed that I let one person control my feelings so much but I have to remember we arent supposed to endure such a challenge such as a deployment. Im allowed to have feelings and emotions. Yes I have my big girl panties, and Yes I wear them 99% of the time.

After our morning out of the house, Gav and I got some downtime, then played outside in pool & cleaned up the steam cleaner and the entire backyard. including toys and pool. We are getting ready for our little girls night tomorrow night. Im very excited to have some friends over, I wish i could invite more, but my house just isnt that big! I put a big dent in my cleaning to-do list. dusted, vacuumed, steam cleaned carpets, dishes, and scrubbed bathtub (it was smelling weird!)  Tomorrow I need to do the finishing touches, a bit of shopping and the cooking. YAY for tacos and pina coladas! It really truly makes me happy to cook for others. I am also very happy to have such a wonderful group of wife friends to turn to and also support. Im now an admin for a batallion wide fb group and a company level fb group. Ive been watching My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding and it sure is crazy, but I cant stop watching! Im ready to head upstairs to bed. Im hoping for a good nights sleep tonight and maybe sleep in? One can hope.